I have to change every so often to remind myself that I’m not stuck in one mindset. It could be something small like trying a whole new way around a project at work or something as simple as changing the kind of coffee I’m drinking. Maybe shave off the scraggly beard I’ve been growing. (See pic.)
Change is good for you. At least that’s what people tell me.
I get in ruts sometimes so deep that I can’t see the top, so there’s my problem. I’m not able to realize that I’m actually in a rut.
It can be a work rut or an emotional rut. I feel like I’ve hit an emotional rut lately, quite possibly some mild depression. And that’s a rough thing to be in but it happens to everyone. No one is on top and happy one hundred percent of the time. If they were they wouldn’t know what real happiness is. You can’t go through life lying to yourself.
To thine own self be true. – Polonius
So here I am, being true to myself, being honest with myself and trying my best to fix the things that are bugging me.
For me that means work. Work makes me happy and fulfilled so that I’m bearable for my family at home.
I haven’t been sleeping well, I wake up very early most mornings. I’m cutting back on stimulants to try to even myself out. Seems to be working. Taking a sleep aid several hours before bed to make me lay down and go out. The wife doesn’t like me working nights. She doesn’t sleep well when I’m not home. But when I can’t sleep I get dressed and head on into work. Best to get something down while I can. I’ve been tiring easily lately with all this going on.
This page isn’t always going to be a forgotten place or something weird. Sometimes it’s just going to be me being me.
And so it goes.
Get off the highway.
Seegars
Searching The South 